My husband and I were about to go to another doctor’s appointment and this one was with a thoracic surgeon. A growth was found in a CAT scan and this was the next course of action. The growth is behind his sternum in a very difficult place to get to. I had been talking with the Lord, trying to remember that faith conquers fear, knowing from many past experiences that I can trust Him always.
As my Father and I visited, I asked Him if He would please carry me as we rounded another corner of this medical journey.
I have always known that, as a child of God, I am welcomed into His arms anytime. I believed I needed that security and comfort now. I envisioned Him carrying me as He had done so many times in the past. I have always envisioned Him carrying me when the going got too rough for me to handle.
This time, my Father spoke to my heart, saying, “I have given you the strength to walk with Me through this.” Immediately, I envisioned myself walking beside Jesus, taking sure steps knowing He was with me.
I was delighted! He was giving me the strength to walk with Him! At 65 years old, my God was allowing me to understand that, yes, I am His child, and yes, He often carries me. This time, though, He was blessing me, His mature daughter, with His strength so that I could walk with Him. Not only was I comforted by His words, my faith increased, knowing that, no matter what trials or situations we face, God knows exactly what we need and provides for us. This time, He was giving me strength!
Note: The surgeon was a delightful blessing, saying she isn’t sure what the growth is, but she isn’t going to cut until she knows more. She ordered a PET scan and we’ll meet with her for the results and to determine the next move.
Dorissa Vanover 